I finished my course of oral antibiotics on the 14th, the same day I went down to Santa Barbra for CF clinic. I was still feeling tired, weak, ran down, and running fevers as I explained to my doctor how I was still feeling. He wanted me to continue doing treatments 3 times a day, take time to stay home, rest, and use all my sources to get better in order to continue avoiding another hospital stay. I agreed, not feeling overly confident that I could get better but willing to try if it’s what he thought was best. It is now the 29th and I am pleasantly surprised that I have been felling better for a few days now, although I wish I could say I am feeling my best, I’m still trying to get to my base line of feeling healthy. This month has been mentally and physically exhausting. I have been sick since the end of October and trying to fight an infection. My month has consisted of running fevers, often feeling tired, short of breath, tired or weak from something as simple as walking up stairs, or just running to the store has been difficult. It gets more and more difficult being so incapable of doing certain things and having to rely on other people to help for this long. Its nothing I’m not used to, just something that never really gets easier. Having to completely rely on loved ones to slow down their daily lives to take care of me and Paisley will always be difficult. I always wish I could do more for them.
With the excitement of the holiday coming near I can’t help but want to be as healthy as I can throughout these next few months. I have always been in love with the holidays. The beautiful lights and decorations everywhere you look, baking for friends and family, delicious home cooked food, memorable time spent with loved ones and family, stockings hung right above the toasty warm fire under the chimney, hot coco and a good old Christmas classic on the tv are some of the best things that come to mind when I think of the holidays. But it’s not until I added my own addition to the family’s stockings it gave the holidays a whole new extraordinary meaning for me. This time of year became a celebration of life and living for me and my daughter. Three years ago that warm fireplace where the stalkings hung every year turned into the wall above the bed in my hospital room where I spent Christmas and New Years in. As the holidays passed 3 years ago I was hopeful my daughter and I would have the chance to celebrate many more Christmas holidays together. This season is a remarkable memory of the time I spent fighting for her and the miracle I was gifted that year. It’s a reminder that my family is always there for me, and most importantly a reminder to be thankful for the little things, because they matter the most.
Being a mom this time of year gives the holidays a whole new meaning and as the holidays come I prepare for a month of Christmas cheer! Hot coco, the warm fire place, and movies become a nightly ritual. Baking for friends and family begins, and decorations soon begin to fill the house! Gumdrop (Paisley’s elf on the shelf) came for the first night Dec. 2nd. Paisley was curious, yet excited to hear about the exciting little friend Santa sent to watch if she was being naughty or nice. Paisley talks to Gumdrop all the time and is sure she notices that her veggies are clean off her plate after dinner. As Paisley has gotten older and able to understand the concept of Christmas and Santa Claus, this season has really become a lot of fun. We both look forward to a happy and healthy December.
Some of our favorite movies to watch this season:
-Winne The Pooh: A Very Merry Pooh year
-The Polar Express
-The Santa clause
Some of our favorite treats to bake this season:
Spritzer cookies by Pampered Chef
1/2 cups of butter, softened
1 cup of sugar
1 teaspoon vanilla
3 1/2 cups all purpose flour
- Preheat oven to 375°F. Mix together butter, sugar, egg, and vanilla; add flour one cup at a time.
- Bake 10-12 minutes until firm not brown.
Toffee by Betty Crocker
1 cup of sugar
1 cup butter or margarine
1/4 cup of water
1/2 cup semi sweet chocolate( I recommend chocolate chips)
1/2 cup finely chopped pecans
- Heat sugar, butter and water to boiling in heavy 2-quart saucepan, stirring constantly; reduce heat to medium. Cook about 13 minutes, stirring constantly, to 300°F on candy thermometer or until small amount of mixture dropped into cup of very cold water separates into hard, brittle threads. (Watch carefully so mixture does not burn.)
- Immediately pour toffee onto ungreased large cookie sheet. If necessary, quickly spread mixture to 1/4-inch thickness. Sprinkle with chocolate chips; let stand about 1 minute or until chips are completely softened. Spread softened chocolate evenly over toffee. Sprinkle with pecans.
- Let stand at room temperature about 1 hour, or refrigerate if desired, until firm. Break into bite-size pieces. Store in airtight container.
M&M pudding cookies by Betty Crocker
2 1/2 cups Gold Medal™ all-purpose flour
1 1/2 teaspoons baking soda
1/2 teaspoon salt
1 cup butter, softened
3/4 cup granulated sugar
3/4 cup packed brown sugar
1 box (4-serving size) Jell-O vanilla instant pudding mix
1 teaspoon vanilla
2 cups green and red M&M’s™ milk chocolate candies
1 cup white vanilla baking chips
- Heat oven to 350°F. In medium bowl, mix flour, baking soda and salt; set aside.
- In large bowl, beat butter, granulated sugar and brown sugar with electric mixer on medium speed about 1 minute or until fluffy; scrape side of bowl. Beat in dry pudding mix. Beat in eggs, one at a time, just until smooth. Beat in vanilla. On low speed, gradually beat flour mixture into butter mixture until well blended. Stir in chocolate candies and white chips until blended.
- Drop dough by rounded tablespoonfuls about 2 inches apart onto ungreased cookie sheets.
- Bake 9 to 11 minutes or until light brown. Cool 2 minutes; remove from cookie sheets to cooling rack. Cool completely, about 15 minutes. Store in airtight container at room temperature.